I am a hard worker , I use to have two jobs at the time , one of them full time with a great pay check , but I get hooked with gambling , I know I am going down hell , but I can't stop , I was driven rather than a driver ... My full time job lay me off , I try to get back , but by the time - although I had a good chance - I give up , my part time job and my credit give me the feeling that I am "save" .. I live day to day , loan to loan , until I reach way bellow the bottom , I had been kicked out of the rent after (3) months behind , I move to my sister house , I found a part time job , and got the feeling that I can start again , although I was skilled and successful , but I became looking to the empty half of the glass , something "I deserve more than that" .. I give a two week notice thinking I'll find better the next day , I found nothing , I am behind in job hunting at least 12 years , I never thought I will loose my full time job and my (security) , I spend now more than four months taking money from my sister for the cigarettes , eating and living on her expense , I 'll find a job tomorrow? .. I am looking , but not with the power needed ? Today my sister told me , exactly what I need to hear , enough is enough : I need a shelter , I need a job , I need to get out of the hole , and start my life again
I need help
